+ A Piece of Heaven +

you're my song

some dreams live on in time forever
those dreams,you want with all your heart
and i will do whatever it takes
follow through with the promise i made
put it all on the line
what i hoped for at last would be mine

if i could reach,higher
just for one moment touch the sky
from that one moment in my life
i am gonna be stronger
know that i have tried my very best
i would put my spirit to the test
if i could reach

some days are meant to be remembered
those days we rise above the stars
so i will go the distance this time
seeing more the higher i climb
that the more i believe
all the more that this dream would be mine

"reach" by gloria estefan & diane warren

hitting the highnotes

"among my most prized possessions are the words that i have never spoken." ~ orson rega card

a simple girl in a big big world

Seldom,very seldom does complete truth belong to any human disclosure; seldom can it happen that something is not a little disguised,or a little mistaken.

- Jane Austen, Emma

Talking much about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself.

- Friedrich Nietzsche

sounding the rhythmof life

"there are moments when i wish i could roll back the clock and take all the sadness away, but i have a feeling that if i did, the joy would be gone as well." ~ nicholas sparks

Monday, April 24, 2006

The last couple of days have been spent thinking about where I want to go from this point in life. Kind of got excited about going on the job hunt so I went and finally got the resume done. Been flipping papers all this while and there are several job ads that do look very interesting. But somehow, the more I look around, the more they made me see that I am still pretty unsure of what I want to do. I feel like I am still drawn toward journ-related areas, maybe because that is where the passion lies. But at the same time I want to try out corp comms because it seems very challenging. Then there is doing business and marketing with the China market that is also very very appealing and it will be nice to put my degree to good use. I want to do so many things it’s hard to make a choice. It is bad to feel like a kid in a candy store when it comes to choosing a job (or some say a career). I need to get a focus so I can stop feeling lost the way I am right now.

And the ultimate ironic thing is I doubt I can get a proper permanent job for another half a year or so unless I put my study plans on hold. Which kindhearted employer will let me go on 2 mths leave to study overseas? Sigh. So I am not sure if I should really be sending out resumes now, despite the ads tempting me every time I look at them. Kinda sux. But yeah, I do want to do the course, it is a good opportunity that I don’t think I should give up. Maybe I should just stick to my MOE contract plans for now. Another thing that I have always wanted to do.

Had a chat with Alvin yesterday afternoon. He is graduating this sem too. Oh,by the way, CS convocation is in the evening this year haha. Anyway he may not be attending since he has other plans after grad. He may be hopping on a plane and going away too. His plans took me by surprise but yeah everything is not confirmed yet. Seriously rather unexpected. Maybe all this while I just thought he would stay on in SPH and work there till his hair turns grey haha. Hmm, in some ways I guess we are quite similar. Sometimes I wonder if we are complicating things for ourselves. Will things be a whole lot easier if journo us just take up a journo job and stay contented with it? By charting a different path, where will we end up one day…

The night meeting with Qiyun on Friday was also filled with a couple of thought-provoking moments when we will look back on the past 300 odd days and what we have been doing. We questioned and we sought answers. It is in such reflections that we sometimes see what we may have been denying. Yes, The Hours babe, we should all go back and revisit the film again.

I thought the excerpt from Eugene O’Kelly’s memoir in the Sunday papers was really very touching. The man with a brilliant career was inspiring even till the day he died. Perhaps the number of years we live is not so important but the quality of it matters more. When every one of us is busy working each day, how much of what we are doing is truly what we want to do? Lucky the ones who get to do so. I only hope we get to pursue what we truly want and have the courage to actually do so. After all, we are 24 today, an age when ideals should not falter and dreams should not die.

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